did we grow up too fast???

came back from work quite early today coz I was too stressed from work so I thought of putting all the work aside and give myself a break before I start going wacko…

reached home about 8pm and I saw mum having dinner alone coz dad was still stuck in the jam all the way from shah alam. my heart immediately sinks when I felt the loneliness of hers but I kept all the feelings inside. since mum is finishing her dinner soon and I didn’t feel like eating so I waited for her to join me at the living room. did you know that expert says living room is the best place to build the bond within the family? yup, I remember reading it somewhere in a magazine.

so both mum and I hanging out in the living room with the tv set showing some chinese family comedy drama while I was flipping thru today’s newspaper and mum doing the hotel amenities thingy. suddenly, mum striked up a conversation telling me what dad told her the other day when they were both alone at home. guess what dad said? he said it’s so quiet at home nowadays coz Shareen is back to uni hostel, Rachel is still in the NS camp and I was out that day for Chin Mei’s wedding dinner. he misses us being around him. I couldn’t believe this comes from my daddy…. yeah, the man of the home being so sentimental… mum replied dad telling him that this will happen in the near future when we, the daughters, decided to get married or move out to live their own life. my eyes started to get teary when I heard that but I held it back yet again (but now I’m crying like a baby while typing this). you must be thinking that I’m being too emotional but really I can’t help it… I’m sure if Jackie is reading this, he’s definitely shaking his head now and thinking the silly girl is crying again….

it was then about 9.30pm, dad just reached home after all the traffic jam. I was supposed to hang out at bars with my friends but I decided not to and spend my time with dad and mum. helped mum to prepare dinner for dad then we watched news and Oprah’s show together. chat about the current issues and they updated me on Rachel’s latest news since I didn’t make it to visit her last weekend. then dad started taking out all our old times photos from his drawer. all those photos were taken at least a decade ago using analog camera (or is it called manual camera? don’t know what it is called anymore….). some photos of Shareen and Rachel wearing the same clothing, photos of dad, mum and I in HK and Taiwan, photos of CNY family portrait with grandma at Ipoh wooden house…. too much for me to mention here….

now here I am, sitting by my pc and memories come back to my mind like a perfect complete set of storyboard…. I miss you, grandpa and grandmas! no one can replace the love that you showered me…. I hope you are doing very fine in the other world….

I am sure dad and mum must be thinking how they wish we didn’t grow up so fast, that this leaving-them-alone day will never come. I can do nothing more but to just treasure every single moment I can ever have with my family… love you all….